I can’t tell you how long I’ve spent staring at this screen hoping that any story but mine would fill it. I decided that this was going to be a place of honesty for me though, so there’s no getting around the fact that this is something I need to do.
My name is Corwin Brown, I’m 20 years old(Varies), and I suffer from depression. Even rereading that simple sentence makes me feel like I’m sharing someone else’s secret. Unfortunately, the secret is mine and keeping it out of the light is doing far more harm than good.
It would be an understatement to say that recently things have hit rock bottom. I’ve started feeling disconnected from friends and family, my sleep schedule is in shambles, I can no longer see the point in doing anything, and I’m mentally recovering from a failed suicide attempt. Not many people know about what happened, and I’ve struggled with how to best handle that knowledge, but when it comes down to it, I am tired of pretending like it didn’t happen. I am actively trying to move past the depression, and everything that comes with it, and get back to that kid I used to be. The kid who couldn’t help but smile all throughout the day. The kid who was an immense know it all, and couldn’t picture himself being wrong. The kid who was constantly thinking about the future, and the possibilities it held. most importantly though, I want to get back to being the kid who loved life and everyone in it. So, I don’t know who all is going to see this, and what your thoughts on me will be, but I hope that maybe you stick around, and help me take off this mask that has become my life.